Ariana Grande’s Sweetener Netflix doc – The tragic moments that influenced the album as she reveals new engagement

OVER a million fans watched Ariana Grande's epic 101-show Sweetener World Tour in 2019 – and millions more will get to see it now too.

The pop princess, 27, sent fans into meltdown by announcing a new Netflix documentary delving into the performances with the songs themselves building on a terrible amount of personal tragedy.


The documentary, titled Excuse Me, I Love You, shows behind the scenes footage from the tour along with clips of the live performances.

Exes' deaths, relationships breaking down, and even one of the most horrific terror attacks of the decade all formed the painful backdrop to the £110m tour.

And Ariana has been outspoken of her own struggles with mental health throughout, feeling unable to perform due to anxiety and even PTSD.

She's now found happiness with luxury home estate agent Dalton Gomez, announcing their engagement last night on Instagram.

But for years, she lived through a devastating string of heartbreaks – from relationship breakdowns to the loss of loved ones.

'Broken' by terror attack

An Ariana Grande live show was at the heart of Britain's biggest national tragedy in 2017 – the Manchester Arena Bombing.

As young pop fans were filtering out of the venue on the night of May 22, 22-year-old extremist Salman Ramadan Abedi detonated a suicide bomb in the foyer of the arena.


The despicable attack killed 23 people, including Abedi, and wounded 800 more – including children.

It was one of the deadliest terror attacks ever to take place on British soil.

"Broken," Ariana tweeted in the hours after the attack.

"From the bottom of my heart, I am so so sorry. I don't have words."

Understandably, the horrific incident took its toll on Ariana and she took the decision to address it in her art.

That's why the lead single from Sweetener, which came out in August 2018, was No Tears Left to Cry.

Songwriter Savan Kotecha told Billboard that the song's title came from Ariana herself saying she wanted her first song after the bombing: "to be positive and talk about positivity and love. I don't have any tears left to cry!"

Her unimaginable trauma came through publicly when she performed at the One Love Manchester in June 2017.

The special benefit show at Old Trafford Cricket Ground two weeks after the attack featured guest appearances from the likes of Justin Bieber, Miley Cyrus, and Liam Gallagher.

It raised over £18million for the bombing's victims' families and Ariana thanked her fans for their incredible support, but broke down in tears as she performed a cover of Somewhere Over the Rainbow to close the show.

The following year, Ariana revealed she'd been living with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) symptoms in the wake of the bombing.

"It's hard to talk about because so many people have suffered such severe, tremendous loss," she told Vogue.

“I know those families and my fans, and everyone there experienced a tremendous amount of it as well. Time is the biggest thing.

"I feel like I shouldn't even be talking about my own experience – like I shouldn't even say anything. I don't think I'll ever know how to talk about it and not cry.”

Deadly overdose

A year after that horrific public tragedy, Ariana suffered a crushing personal loss too.

She'd been in a relationship with rapper Mac Miller since 2016 and he supported her through the aftermath of the attack.

But, in May 2018, the couple split up, with reports suggesting their hecticsuperstar schedules were to blame.

Just a few months later, Mac died from an accidental drug overdose at his home in LA.

He'd been open about his substance abuse issues in the past and a coroner's report later found his death had been caused by a fatal cocktail of cocaine, alcohol, and fentanyl.

Ariana was left heartbroken by his shocking passing away aged just 26.

"I adored you from the day I met you when I was nineteen and I always will," she wrote on Instagram in the days following his death.

"I can’t believe you aren’t here anymore. I really can’t wrap my head around it.

"We talked about this. So many times. I’m so mad, I’m so sad I don’t know what to do.

"You were my dearest friend. For so long. Above anything else. I’m so sorry I couldn’t fix or take your pain away.

"I really wanted to. The kindest, sweetest soul with demons he never deserved. I hope you're okay now. Rest." 

Whirlwind romance and building anxiety

Tragically, Ariana's horrible run of heartbreak didn't end there.

In May 2018, Ariana started dating SNL comic Pete Davidson shortly after breaking up with Mac Miller.

Pete, 27, had himself recently broken up with long-term girlfriend Cazzie David, Larry David's daughter, when he got together with Ariana.

Their romance rapidly escalated and, the following month, Ariana was spotted wearing a $93,000 (£70,000) engagement ring, according to TMZ.

The same month, she revealed one of the songs on Sweetener was going to be about Pete – eventually titled Pete Davidson – and unveiled their first matching tattoos.

But in September, when Miller died, their engagement ran into trouble, with Pete later saying he knew their relationship was "pretty much" over at that point.


They officially went their separate ways in October five months before the Sweetener World Tour even began.

Unsurprisingly, Pete Davidson was left off the set list.

But the split with Pete was thought to be affecting her performances around the time they separated.

In October 2018, Ariana performed in a special anniversary show for the musical Wicked, in which she sang The Wizard and I on Broadway in New York.

But she reportedly missed the dress rehearsal and posted a series of images on Instagram before the performance to reveal she'd been wrestling with anxiety.

"Can't believe I almost let my anxiety ruin this for me today!" she wrote.

"Not today Satan! Not tomorrow or the next day either not no more."

Finding love in lockdown

Since February 2020, Ariana has been in a relationship with property tycoon Dalton Gomez.

Their relationship was confirmed when they appeared together in the video with her collaboration with Justin Bieber, Stuck With U.



And she's now confirmed that they're engaged, sharing a series of loved-up snaps of her and Dalton cuddling along with shots of her diamond ring on Instagram.

"I am so excited to welcome Dalton Gomez into our family! Ariana, I love you and Dalton so much!" Ariana's mum Joan tweeted.

"Here’s to happily ever after! YAY!"

And like her previous boyfriends, fans think the loved up title track from latest album Positions is all about Dalton.

"Heaven sent you to me," Ariana sings.

"I'm just hopin’ I don't repeat history."

Excuse Me, I Love You is available on Netflix

 

 

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